A Quantum Leap
Sometimes, you think you’ve reached your peak—
only to find yourself standing at the edge of collapse.
That’s what happened to me after the Alignment Summit 2025.
An event I poured my whole heart into.
Three full days. Nearly 50 women.
Over 400 hours of preparation.
I gave it everything.
And then—
I broke down.
Three weeks of illness.
High fever.
My body pulled the brakes.
Or maybe I should say:
My soul handed the reins over to my body.
“Go ahead,” she said.
“She’s not listening to me anyway.”
And so I had no choice but to lie down.
To rest.
To feel.
Two days after the event,
I flew back to Canada.
A 9.5-hour flight. An 8-hour time difference.
And when I arrived home—
I was empty.
Drained.
Exhausted.
And deeply hurt.
Not just from the work.
Not from the responsibility.
Not from the pressure.
But from something else—
a wall of rejection.
Suddenly there were looks.
Comments.
Judgments.
From people who had stood by me for years.
People I had given so much to—
so much, it’s hard to even list it all.
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What happened?
I had announced the price for next year’s Alignment Summit.
And suddenly, the energy shifted.
It was as if I had walked into a room
where my worth was being questioned.
Not openly.
Not loudly.
But subtly—
behind my back,
in whispers exchanged during breaks,
in glances,
in silences.
The energy in the room became so dense,
so heavy,
that I felt like clearing away the altar in the center—
the one we had decorated so lovingly.
It didn’t deserve that.
I didn’t deserve that.
I felt frozen—
and yet still responsible.
I held it all together.
I stayed strong.
I carried the space all the way to the end.
But afterward…
I collapsed.
In the silence, the soul speaks
What followed was more than physical exhaustion.
It was a stripping down of my soul.
And in the midst of the fever,
the nightmares,
the tears—
a voice came.
Quiet.
Clear.
Unshakable.
“You are enough.”
I didn’t have to prove anything anymore.
Didn’t have to strive.
Didn’t have to earn my worth.
My husband and I had known for a while
that the next step was waiting.
To automate our courses.
To live more—
and offer transformation with less “live” energy.
But I had hesitated.
What would my community think?
What if no one wanted to work with me unless they could see me live?
But sometimes,
it takes a breakdown
to clear the path.
Back to myself: Five pathways to reconnection
I want to share with you what truly helped me find my way back to myself.
No complex techniques.
No heavy concepts.
Just small, quiet rituals.
1. Gratitude as Medicine
“Gratitude is the cure,” my husband David always says.
So I began each day—
and ended each night—
by naming ten things I was grateful for.
Sometimes it was just the warm blanket.
The roof over my head.
The tea in my hands.
And still—
it was enough.
Enough to remind my nervous system:
You are held.
2. Simple Questions for a Clearer Mind
When my thoughts started spinning again,
I asked myself three very simple questions:
- Is this really true?
- Does this have anything to do with me?
- Do I have to decide this right now?
These questions helped me stay grounded—
instead of getting lost in other people’s stories,
their projections,
their opinions.
3. The Senses as Anchors
When thinking no longer helped,
feeling did.
I felt the warmth of my cup.
The scent of flowers.
The bark of a tree beneath my fingertips.
I walked barefoot in the garden.
Planted herbs.
Listened to the birds.
Baked cakes.
Painted.
I was simply there.
Just being—in the here and now.
What do I see?
What do I hear?
What do I taste?
What do I smell?
What do I feel with my hands?
4. The 5 Reiki Principles
I spoke them every single day.
Again and again.
Like a prayer:
Just for today, I trust.
Just for today, I love.
Just for today, I am true to myself.
Just for today, I am grateful.
Just for today, I am kind to myself and to others.
Each sentence brought me back—
to what matters.
To what’s real.
To what holds me.
5. Ho’oponopono & the Little Broom
My favorite tool.
At the Summit, I teach it using a small broom.
I took it into my right hand—
and began sweeping.
Not outside.
But inside my own mind.
I swept away doubt.
Old stories.
The fear of not being enough.
And I spoke:
I’m sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.
I love you.
Not to others.
But to myself.
To the one who tried so hard to do everything right—
and in the process, forgot
that she already was enough.
I am a divine soul,
having a human experience.
A New Vision Board. A New Life.
I built myself a new vision board.
The pictures of big events?
They could go.
The group gatherings?
Also gone.
Now, my vision board holds images of our farm—
homemade jam,
vegetables, fruit trees,
animals,
love,
and freedom.
Because now I know:
I’m here to live.
To love.
To be carried by life—
not by performance.
A Gentle Meditation for You
If you’d like,
place your hand on your heart.
Feel your breath.
And softly say to yourself:
May I be safe and held.
May I be happy.
May I be healthy.
May I move through life with ease and love.
Now bring someone to mind—someone you love.
And offer them the same wish:
May you be safe and held.
May you be happy.
May you be healthy.
May you move through life with ease and love.
And if you can—
even think of someone where it’s hard—
and wish them the same.
Because love heals.
Always.
May you be safe and held.
May you be happy.
May you be healthy.
May you move through life with ease and love.
And now?
Over 40 spots for the Alignment Summit 2026
have already been claimed—
by women who are ready for their next quantum leap.
We will laugh.
We will cry.
We will celebrate—
one last time.
Because now,
I’m allowed to be there for me.
No more live events.
No more groups.
Just being.
If something in this speaks to your soul,
follow me for an authentic, spiritual life—
with all its highs and lows.
I regularly share inspiration
for women who are ready to live their purpose.
Not someday.
But now.
Photo: Sandy Faulhaber
With love, from soul to soul,
Annie ✨
